Truth, Justice and the Jami Way

Reading EDW's blog post from yesterday, I was thinking about how much my true self I am most of the time. The point I made in her comment section is that I generally am the authentic me that I am at that moment - and that, my friends, is imminently changeable. There was a quote I read years ago, which I can't find at the moment, which was something like "I am the most of me, when I am the least replete of me". This strikes a chord for me - if you want to see ME, come with me on the camping trips with my teens in the fall. I am too busy thinking of them to be concerned with me - and that's the most me I can be. A few days ago, I subtley, steathily mentioned my blog to a friend. I believe it was something like "So, uh, read my blog yet? I noticed you haven't commented." My friend's reply was "Yes. I read it." Blink. Blink. This person, let's call him/her Jordan, since it's non-gender-specific and I don't know anyone named Jordan, this is someone who's opinion I value. Clearly, Jordan went to the school of "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything." Jordan, I hope you're still reading and you'll let me know why you didn't like it. Now, maybe Jordan didn't want to say why s/he didn't care for it; we were in a public place and perhaps s/he wanted to spare my feelings in front of our other friends, should they be listening. Or maybe Jordan thinks blogs are ridiculous, a paean to our own egos (yes indeedy!) and has no time to waste on other's thoughts. I tried hard to figure if I'd said something that would be offensive to Jordan (or really anyone). Couldn't think of anything. The thing is, I'm not going to change much, even if Jordan does eventually tell me what the problem is. I didn't use any profanity, because I can write without it, and I do have friends who don't care to read that. It might be boring, I suspect it is, but it's not to me, and really, as much as I want others to enjoy it, this really is for me. It's a brain-dump that I used to do in email, in a forum where I get a little feedback, and you get better insights into my inner-workings. I'll change the picture if that's what offending. Maybe add a link if Jordan thinks I should've linked to his homepage or something. But to change much more - that just wouldn't be honest. And if I'm not going to be an honest me on my own blog - when will I?